It’s been fun in the sun the last few days. The weather sure picked up and we’ve been enjoying our last few days with Fi around. She has been the most amazing guest ever! i can’t tell you how easy these last few weeks have been. Iona fell in love with her and having her around all the time just made such a difference. I was able to get so much done with minmal stress just by her simply being here to entertain Iona and be a friend to her. Now for those of you who think I am a user of a hostess, I did do my best to make sure she got a break as well!!
I also enjoyed just having someone around to constantly talk to. it was so much fun. We had lots of deep and meaningfulls as well as a lot of laughts. I always felt slightly just on the edge of really getting to know her while In the UK so this was an ideal time to just really seal our friendship. I now feel happy about returning to the UK and having another friend there!
Anyway, saying goodbye tonight was really hard. I felt such a sadness, even though we’d be seeing her again relatively soon. I suppose what hurt was seeing how Iona’s face fell when we told her Fi was leaving and getting on a plane. She saw the bed had been moved back into her own room and saw Fi’s suitcase all packed and I think she worked it out. She just seemed so deeply sad. She went all quiet and just whimpered a little bit. It broke my heart!!!!! goodbye’s have been such a big part of my life. With every amazing meanfull experience God has blessed me with, that has made my life so much richer, along with that has come some terrible partings where I’ve felt an almost physical pain to the loss.
In initally leaving England, I grieved for Iona as i knew everything would change so much for her, but as she’s no nearly a year older, it’s so much more real for her. To see her little face fall and hear her ask for Fi in a sad voice once we’d said out goodbye’s doubled my own pain of saying goodbye to a newly found friend and companion. So it begins for her. I do believe with all my heart her life will be richer for the experiences she has had and will continue to have as our daughter, but my heart breaks for the goodbye’s she will have to say. It never ever gets easier. Not when you’ve truly connected with someone.
So Granny arrives tomorrow evening and I’m hoping for another wonderful few weeks of her forming an attachment and affection for someone who loves her dearly and has so much to offer her. I won’t think about the goodbye’s just yet.
